Month TWO

My Dearest Belle,

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but this past month flew by in a blur. The long days and sleepless nights seemed to never end, but here we are…

When we went in for your two-month check-up, you measured 25.5 in. long and weighed 13 lbs. 12.5 oz. You’re growing healthy and strong everyday, and it’s no wonder - you’re putting away 5 oz. of formula per meal now. We’ve had to graduate you to the big bottles, and Papa and I are both shocked and awed.

You’re getting better and better at tummy time, and in my eyes, I can already see you crawling around and getting into mischief everywhere. But you can’t even roll over yet, so crawling is still a long ways off, but a mama bear can dream.

Papa and I have been trying to get you to sleep less in the Ergobaby carrier and more in your crib. We know that this isn’t an easy task for a 2-month old, but we’re still trying each nap time and every night. You definitely don’t appreciate these new disciplines, but we’re told it’s the safest way for you to sleep. This is why we’re waiting with bated breath for you to roll over on your own so that we can stop swaddling you and let you sleep whichever way you want.

To say that these last two months have tested and stretched Papa and me would be a MASSIVE understatement. I feel like we’re being tested as a parent… adult… human… There are moments when I sit there staring at you while you scream your head off in utter and complete defeat. There are moments when I sit and cry with you because I feel so useless, hopeless and lost. There are moments when I get angry at you and myself.

Then you coo or smile.

Not even at me.

And the world’s alright again.

It’s amazing how quickly and thoroughly you melt our hearts (and fatigue)… How quickly and thoroughly we fall in love with you… How quickly and thoroughly you became our world.

We love you so much, Belle, and we know that it’s a love that’s only going to grow stronger and deeper as we grow stronger together as a family.

Love always,
Mama